May 22, 2013

40. 'Times Square'

''In a tired part of the city
Waiting for some fast talk
Watch 'Don't walk' to 'Walk'''

Sometimes she sings, ''Hiding from the fast talk'', or ''Looking for some fast talk''. No difference in meaning.

To close myself off, I wear earphones, but when someone appears to want to ask me something, I take them off as readily as I answer to an expected phone call.

To make myself more available for passers-by, I pretend to be waiting for someone, but when I see a group of joyfully noisy people coming, I take my phone, make it appear that I have received a message and start walking. 

Joyful and aggressive. No difference in meaning.

''Standing in a circle
Staring at the movies
Laughing at the wrong time''

It is others that laugh at the wrong time. At the movies, not in a circle. What circles could I possibly talk about?

I sit in the front and imagine that I am Anna Karina in Vivre sa vie.

''Take a walk around Times Square
With a pistol in my suitcase
And my eyes on the TV''

I posted these lines somewhere once.

''I took my gun and vanished''. I posted this line somewhere once.

''times square was very much I felt my experience of new york it's a song about the the loneliness and the emptiness and the the sort of futility really the and and what I particularly like about it is the bit about the machine gun and the suitcase and that's so much what it's like to be an addict it's this absolute repressed fury you know that you cannot say anything if you told anyone how you felt they would be consumed on the spot so what the addict does what I did is took it out on myself and that's how you deal with that rage but it doesn't help and it's still there''

''Alcohol could take me there''

To have a future.

''And if I die gaining my senses
Wake up in a hotel
Staring at the ceiling''

Sometimes in summer, right before the sunset, the spire of St. Nicholas' Church transforms into a dagger that holds the wrist skin taut but never cuts in.

The song and the quote are available here.